Mustang Update

the hood isnt closed and the headlights are just sat in place

Been a while

it has been a while, i'm still hear eating my soup for lunch, cambells healthy choice, it's alright i guess. Anywho, just thought i would say hello. My good friends tristan and don stopped in for a tick on thursday, it was a nice visist. Here's hoping next time we have more of a game plan. All in all it was good to plan thing by the second cause they left quickly on friday, only for us to find out there was a free Counting Crows concert at the arch late that night. We would ahve never found out had they stayed. Not that i would have been mad, it's just cool how things turn out. So yeah,

Another update pic

Flex Time dont mind the face

beneath me this city is screaming

Week 1

Just a couple pics of the man muscles, not much, just getting started, i can already see a difference, but only time will tell what it will look like in 10 weeks. I havent noticed a "CUT" difference but only a bulk difference, once agian it's early in the program.

More Mustang

Dont mind the flat tire

Lyrics

Any of the lyrics that are (--) that means they are whispered in the background by another voice, i'm not sure if thats going to be my vioce on the recording or not. I don't have music or even a real song idea for this yet, i do have the vocal melodie in my head and i know how this song will be structured. Converting from Guitar to voice - to voice to guitar, is something that dosent work for me. I noticed how bad my grammer was in the last post, i blame that on the pills and lack of sleep (armodafinil) a drug used in improving the wakefullness of sleepy patients (it's a controled substance - an upper). With a side effects lists as long as the wall of china, even a rash that causes death, if not treated, has been reported. They could have just told me that and not given the drug and i would have been up thinking i was dying.

The drug did work, we got up yesturday at 3:30 AM, my table mate and i got up before everyone else (only by 5 min), we dosed shortly after AND by 11:30 to 12:30 i was having a very hard time falling alseep. Thats not me at all, i always fall alseep within a few seconds of lying down. I almost dont even like telling poeple, i'm afraid the more poeple i tell - that i will jinks my self and neverbe able to fall alseep again.

(Title, got me, give me one)

Verse
Taking down these mountains
where angles once stood
(we all look how we feel~)
This night your guardian angle
sits close to your side
(does she know how to whisper)
(does she know when to hide~)
This place
i thought i reconized you
but you where caughtin the tides~

Chorus
Just a 4 letter word, that you hide behind
I am violence, I am Hatred, This void heart of mine

Did you think this heart
could hold another bullet for you
taking down the mountains
where angles once stood
Just a 4 letter word, that you hide behind
I am violence, I am Hatred, This cold heart of mine

Verse
Castles we build tall (do you know what it's like)
just to gain some control (to be slowly forgotten)
all those cards we were dealt (another full hand)
when I thought we should fold (he's my begotten)

But these castles we build tall
fall and leave us exposed
you're enticing, and inviting (taking me in)
as you take off your clothes
for my hearts in repose~

Chorus
Just a 4 letter word, that you hide behind
I am violence, I am Hatred, This open heart of mine

Did you think this heart
could hold another bullet for you
taking down the mountains
where angles once stood
Just a 4 letter word, that you hide behind
I am violence, I am Hatred, This dead heart of mine

(Bridge)
Then I am screaming,
you say you can't hear me
when I whisper,
you say speak more clearly
As I embrace you,
you just try to get away
If I tried to leave you alone
you'd just block my way

Chorus Just a 4 letter word, that you hide behind
I am violence, I am Hatred, This White heart of mine
Did you think this heart
could hold another bullet for you
taking down the mountains
where angles once stood
Just a 4 letter word, that you hide behind
I am violence, I am Hatred, That i'm leaving behind

Good morning to ;ll all

I'm writing from Gateway Medical, i didnt mention itsincei know most of you don't approve of me selling my body. Plus some of the stunts i have to pull off to get into thease studies. Ive already gaineda couple pounds from al the wieght lifting so i think that made it harder overall, i'm on a 16 week trainingcourseand i'm supposed to gain 10 pounds of muscle. This comes from Jim Ryans , a guy in my office, he used to be a professoinal body builder and we are supposed to start working out together. Great times.

New Look

Heres some pics taken wiht my cell phone of the stripes on the car, there not doen yet theres a couple little ones to put around the car and on the trunk but ya get the point. Still need a fender and a few more parts and then she goes up for sale.

Sirens at Dawn - CD name

I'm kicking around the ideas for my music and what I'am going to use as an album art work and the back cover, i have a few good ones, and some not so good. Funny i barley have anything recorded yet, never mind having the cd ready to give to poeple. Here is what the finished cd cover should look like. Ya never know it might evolve into somehting else by the end of the game.

Body Building

Thankfully i have a Gym here at the office or else i would be a fatty, i mean i was kinda a fat guy and now i have lost close to 60 pounds and still going but at the moment i'm starting to gain a little back seeing as i have started a very aggressive lifting reg. I plan on taking supplemts and creatine, theres a guy here in the office who actually competed with Arnold, thats right, and he owns his own Gym. He has specials every month on supplemts and he said i could get a months for free to see if i like. We'll see.

The panic of titanic

Just sounds to good to be true right? like it was destined.

I've been working on alot of stuff for the new project 2 for Joy, nothing i think any of the readers of this blog would like but ya never know, i was joking with jennie last night what i'll say to the reporters when i'm sitting in the press conference.

They'll say "So russ how would you describe your sound?"

I would say "It's a tight mix of hardcore, and melodic metal, with jazz and blues influences, alot of odd key signitures and timings. With accoustic break downs and full on accoustic songs to fill in the mix.

I think i might somewhat start doing this on a regular basis, erstoring cars that is, just light restorations, paint cleanings, minor to major motor work. I think my next might be a Bug, i love bugs, did you know i owned a bug.

Mustang pics

Almost finished, i still need to install the trim and paint the bumpers, i have a few odds and ends taht need to be taken car of but soon she'll be in the road.

MOndays

Spent the say on sat at the science center and let the kids play. it was cool we met a ninja turtle. pics - -

Jennies starting to come around again, only after my constant begging and nagging. love ya jen.

cars

just thought i would say hello before the weekend, i WILL have the car done this time. I've wanted to put up picture after picture of other cars and how they look and things i wanted to mimic but then i think you'd have a already pre-conceived notion of what it should look like so i thought i would just wait and WOW you all.

Just a tease

Theres still ALOT of work to do , but this is where im at so far. go back and look at the color of the car originaly compared to now.

well

once i finish the mustang i'll post pictures . . . . yeah well i didnt finish it since im not feeling that well, but i'll try and get more done this weekend. Once i finish the mustang this is going to become a music blog for my project, 2 for joy. i'll post clips and pieces of music, and lot of midi files.

Post of the day

The 5 steps of an Hydrogen Bomb

I will have nearly completed pics of the mustang on monday, i put the last coats of paint on last night. It was a bad night to paint, it was to cold and the paint wouldnt flash so it kept running, i had to work alot of runs out, what should have take 45 miniutes to paint took over 3 hours to make my was round the whole car. Mean while i can hear jennie yelling at Rylen to to and such.

Allergies are at it again. I wanna tear my face off. If it didnt make me sneeze every 3 seconds i would'nt be that bad off but i'm tired of sneezing and i would put money on the fact that every one in the office is tired of hearing me to. (Along with the sniffling and snorting of snot)

Not much planned for this weekend, tomorrow i'm going to a guys house to pull parts for the mustang, " take anything you want" he says, "it's just a junker" he says, we'll see what he thinks when i have half the car taken off and ready to be loaded into my car.

I'm tired of my hands being white and black from the paint.

Hate, the kind of hate that i consider my life

so yeah i say daily how i hate my life, i think everyone does on one level or another, there are just those things i wish i could but i can't no matter what i think is right.

Jennie is pulling away more and more. It's like a daily thing it would be like one of those profit graphs that showed high profit in the thousands and now the graph spikes at the bottom of 2. i drew a picture to represent how i feel. She thinks i'm the women in the relationship since i think it's important to talk about things and express who we feel, but she'd rather clam up and hate everyone for nothing.

and we'll fall beneath, at the back of my heart

and fail to breath, until we resurface again

- Dear hunter -

Feel free to use this graph i have created in your own desription of hate.

Been a while

Almost a week i think since i posted last, i kinda fell out of rythem with posting here since there's only one who reads,

i am almost finished painting the car, i'll have pics up later this week, my allergies are finally starting to relax, pollen season is passing thank god for small favors. Painting the car has been a huge undertaking seeing as all the runs and fish eyes that i've had to work out. The paint im using is different then i'm used to and it goes on extremely wet and wants to run the second it hits the car, so you just have to work with it.

I painted most of the trim and got it ready for the car as well. so it'll all be back together sooner then later. I ended up buying the car from the guy, i was just going to trade him, but i paid him the 300 over the last couple months, so i'm going to finish the car and then sell it for about 3,000. pay off more of are rent seeing as i didnt do my studie. i just didnt feel up to it. Funny enough he was buying all the paint and supplies so really i just paid him back for the stuff he bought for the car.